A Rainbow Of Emotions 6i1t5d

A RAINBOW OF EMOTIONS

by Steve Solomon

Copyright © 2012 by Steve Solomon.

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Contents

Introduction

VIOLET—LOVE

A Granted Request

Your Text

These Three Words

INDIGO—SORROW

Brothers ing

My Valentine

This Feeling

BLUE—RIGHTEOUSNESS

Warrior Of Light

Soldiers Sacrifice

GREEN—SPIRITUALITY

My Spiritual Path

YELLOW—ENLIGHTENMENT

Unity

The Truth

ORANGE—ANGER

Ready For War

Reality Check

RED—HATE

This Woman

Stalemate

Dedicated to my late brother Jeffery Braverman, may he rest in peace

INTRODUCTION

All my life I have had trouble expressing myself to others. Never quite finding the right words to communicate what was in my head. I’ve always enjoyed poetry and would always write little rhymes here and there. It was nothing exceptional. But a two or four line verse at a public school level was just the beginning. I began to notice that when I was upset and I would write a rhyme about what I was feeling, it would make me feel a little better. I also noticed that when I was excited about something I would start randomly thinking of rhyming statements about the situation. I soon developed a liking to writing poetry. I also noticed that when others read what I written, they said they could feel the emotion from it.

I also started reading poems I came across, but never really actively looked for them. I always enjoyed writing my own more. When I did read, I noticed that most authors gravitated towards one certain theme or mood. But a person’s life is never just one mood. A person experiences Moments of joy and sadness, despair and sanctuary, confusion and enlightenment, anger and peace . . . a rainbow of emotions. My motivations for compiling this book are to portray my own colorful life through poetry.

Unfortunately everything that I wrote before high school was lost with time. But I did manage to save a fair collection of pieces from high school and college days. Aside from my poems book from high school, it wasn’t till 2010(and thanks to Facebook) that I actually started taking my poems off the scraps of paper I scribbled them on and put them where I can save them. Then one day I noticed I had a significant number of poems and got the idea to make a book. I selected the ones I wanted to share and compiled them here.

VIOLET—LOVE

A GRANTED REQUEST

Anything you need, just ask it of me I hope you can see, in me you can believe

So many things I want to say, So many things I want to do Time keeps ticking away, but it’s all about what’s comfortable for you

It’s all about what’s right for you, because if it was all about me With such ion I would kiss you, and make you weak in the knees

You asked a favor of me, and that I must respect While alone I must let you be, on my feelings I reflect

Tell me what makes you happy, your wish is my command Your smile is sweeter than taffy, but to see you in tears I can not stand

Sadly it would set off an emotional alarm, if I tried to give you a kiss But even to hold you in my arms, for me is nothing less then bliss

As sweet as you happen to be, it deeply pains me Because it’s so sad to see, you suffering so intensely

Every time my phone, my heart started to race Over things I jumped and dove, if it was you just in case

Every time I get a text, with high hopes I check my phone For me I hope there is no next, even though I stand here now alone

Between visits time slowly es by, but when I’m there with you it just seems to fly When I can’t see you tears fall from my eyes, like the rain of a storm from the thickest skies

It’s so hard to be strong, your amazingness I’ll never forget For I firmly believe together we belong, Can’t deny it was fate that we met

YOUR TEXT

Oh how you are so sweet I was so happy that today we could meet I write this now, as I am on my way OMG, Holy cow, I don’t know what to say

Today for me, was a day of rest Now that you I will see, this day is truly blessed We’ve been talking, till late in the night When with you I’m walking, I’m easy to excite

I just want you to be a major part of my life As a best friend or one day a future Wife I was thinking about your texts last night And you know what, you were right

I’m falling for you, like a comet from the sky A long time I’ll be waiting its true, I’ll wait till the end of time You can’t see what I see, to this you are blind

I want to prove you can trust me; I want to open up your eyes

Your sense of humor is great; you’re so smart in the mind All the other girls must hate, because your one of a kind You have a smart and sexy brain, you have a golden heart You know you drive me insane, a true blessing from the start

I know your wondering why, this soon I feel so strong I care so much that I’ve cried, just to hold you is for what I long You have a sense of style, never dressed like a whore When with you I can’t help but smile, I don’t think I’ll ever get bored

But your probably wondering what’s in it for me Your probably wondering how this situation I perceive I write this poem as an attempt to show you I’m not being careless, I’ve thought this through

You’re an amazing person, a wonderful friend Even if you decide to be single, I’ll still be there till the end I want to get to know you; I want you in my life Even if we wind up only friends with that I’ll be alright

I’m not going to lie, I want you to understand Nothing would make me happier than to be your man But it’s not about me; it’s what’s best for you When it’s a boyfriend you want, I’ll make your dreams come true

What matters to me most, what matters today? With the help of the Holy Ghost, I want to help take your pain away Now that we’ve met, I’ll never look back I’ll be happy as long as we stay friends and that’s the facts

Obviously my heart wants more, but it’s not up to me I’ve got all the patience in the world, let’s just wait and see

THESE THREE WORDS

Oh how I wish you knew, how I really felt about you It doesn’t matter what I do, I just can’t stop thinking about you

No matter how tired I just can’t sleep, no matter how many counted sheep Early in the morning and late at night, I think of you and every thing just seems right

Up until early in the morning, for you my heart is yearning How I wish I could see your face, I think of you and my heart begins to race

What is this feeling inside? Why is this tear in my eye? What is this pain? Why am I going insane?

Someone so new in my life, could this be my future Wife? I don’t know what it is about you; I don’t know how it could be so soon

I’ve felt this feeling once before, it’s like a battering ram on my hearts door Its way too soon to feel this way, But the heart knows what it wants what can I say

Can this soon it really happen? Maybe my mind is just snapping How I feel and what you mean to me, can best be said in words of three

Over here thinking I don’t know what to do, over here thinking could these three words be true? These three words I long to say, but I’m terrified I’ll scare you away

It couldn’t possibly hurt this much, unless these three words were such I wish I could tell you how you make me feel, I wish I could tell you how it’s oh so real

I want to say these three words to you, but I’m way too afraid of losing you These feelings just won’t go away; my heart just wants you to stay

Its like a drug being with you, if you ever left I don’t know what I would do But every time were apart, this feeling is pulling at my heart

Even as I sit here now, to this feeling I must bow I just have to tell you, I LOVE YOU!!

INDIGO—SORROW

BROTHERS ING

A maelstrom of emotions, mixed with love and pain Emotions strong and fluid, like thunder and rain Emotions wild and fierce like a lion’s pride Sentiment inappropriate so I keep it inside

Overwhelmed with all these emotions They leave me fragile and open For they run deep as the bottom of the oceans And I can’t keep myself from hoping

That one day these emotions Won’t have me floating, away I just want to be coping, with all of the pain And no I’m not joking

I don’t like where I’m going For every day I wind up moping Over these emotions and pain

But these feelings are worth documenting and noting

And after reading these words I know that you’re knowing That all these emotions Make my heart go exploding And all I can do is tote them, away

Because everyday I’m soaking in pain And heartache I don’t know what I can say

I just suffer everyday With all this sentiment and pain Because my brother has past away He is no longer with me today

But at least I can say We are still brothers at the end of the day That friendship is real and not fake But for my hearts sake

My memories I will take He is in my thoughts from the time that I wake But make no mistake Despite all this heartache

I can’t deny that us meeting was fate Every time I close my eyes I see his face For just one more hug or hand shake I’d take a trip into outer space

But nothing can make him awake From his eternal rest in the grave So I carry on everyday Living life for his sake

To honor his memory On both our birthdays For me there is no other way I just wish I could hear him say He was back and this time to stay

MY VALENTINE

I will tell you the life story of mine I tell this tale in form of rhyme For most of my life’s time All I desired was a Valentine

Then at 21 years time Thanks to a friend of mine For me he did find My first Valentine

Not the prettiest of her kind Not so sweet or so kind But surely I did not mind For she was my Valentine

But after one months time She left me behind For another of male kind

So I lost my first Valentine

Then one day while on a line This girl there I did find Our fates became intertwined Once again I had a Valentine

A beautiful girl was mine It was a feeling so divine Sweeter then the sweetest wine Oh to have a Valentine

A feeling greater than words can define But then I lost what was mine My heart impaled with thorny vines I had lost my Valentine

At a table set for one I dined Over my love I had lost my mind But then a third girl came next in line Once again I had a Valentine

But yet again I had lost what was mine Yet again I began to lose my mind This was now the third time I had lost my Valentine

Like a gladiator slain in his prime I was as speechless as a mime For several years of this life of mine I had not any Valentine

Then I found a fourth girl whose heart was kind But just like every other time Lost in love I was left behind And in losing her, the truth I did find I’m just not meant to have a Valentine

So now from my search I do resign This is the reason I write this rhyme My heart has been broken time after time Every time I had a Valentine

Now alone, to love I am blind Now I walk a lonely line For love is a thing I left behind For again I have no Valentine

If I could turn back the hands of time If I could my life I would rewind I’d spare myself this pain of mine Never would I have searched for a Valentine

THIS FEELING

No matter what I do No matter where I go It saturates me From head to toe

A weaker mental state A feeling I can’t escape No matter how I try It always seems too late

Overwhelming despair No motivation to spare All can seem lost No strength left to care

Many loved ones around But still feeling down Can’t shake the feeling

To me this feeling is bound

So many things to do and see So many people counting on me But from this wretched feeling I just can’t seem to break free

Like a dark cloud on a sunny day It follows me every step of the way No matter how hard I try It just won’t seem to go away

Overwhelming me from within Like the teenage urge for original sin It’s a force that seems too strong to fight It seems like it’s a battle I can’t win

To live with this feeling In every once of my being Through the tunnel I keep walking But the light at the end I’m not seeing

Against ones self is the ultimate fight When the end is nowhere in sight Only the love and power of God Can give me the needed might

I know I can beat it if I try But most of the time I can only cry This inner daemon I aim to conquer That I might be happy again before I die

Within my heart a war rages on Upon my soul this war causes harm All I wish for is inner peace Like the priest reading a psalm

I wish I could say its effects were subtle But it turned me into an emotional puddle By my own negativity I’m engulfed Like a quarterback in a huddle

Not sure where to go from here Not sure how to stop the tears Living with this feeling that perpetuates Living with this feeling is my greatest fear

This feeling has affected my sense of worth It makes me want to scream and curse Looking at how it had come to be I wish I could put time in reverse

My friends are my only true wealth Despite this feeling affecting my health There is no one else to blame I know I brought this upon myself

The question is how do I proceed? When motivation is few and far between When I have no desire to rise out of bed How am I supposed to get what I need?

Loved but alone like a baby in the womb

Dead inside like a skeleton in its tomb If I cant conquer this feeling It will surely lead to my impending doom

Lost so much and gained so little Like the path of a waterfall away I whittle If I am to conquer this feeling I must solve its curious riddle

BLUE— RIGHTEOUSNESS

WARRIOR OF LIGHT

It’s a crazy world we live in A world full of sin It’s evil around every bend Seems like the good can never win

But its not about who has more might It’s about fighting the good fight Not concerned what the world thinks Just doing what you know is right

A warrior of light is never alone A warrior of flesh and bone When judgment day comes The warrior will be welcomed home

Against the evils of old The warrior of light stands bold For in the heat of battle

His warm heart grows cold

A life of morality and pride The warrior doesn’t hide And when his nature is challenged The warrior takes the noble side

When life’s road gets rough And the conditions get tough The warrior looks deep inside And finds faith is reason enough

A “normal life” is not his fate Pain and sacrifices he must take But what he has given up Will be worth entering heavens gate

Not first choice the life he lives But his mind stays positive For he knows his place in this world His help and protection he gives

He might like the life he has But he plays along like the jazz One note after the next He creates the things that give it zaz

Things he’ll never have he desires But the need for them is not dire For granting help and protection It’s what truly lights his fire

By many he may not be accepted But with morality he’s been infected Although he fights for those who can’t His perfection was never expected

His tale seems one of exaggeration But it’s a true tale of dedication To understand his view of the world It requires much contemplation

So much of himself he had gave So many people he tried to save His reward lies in his heart and soul For his hands remain unpaid

His struggle is for the good of man To serve his Lord he does what he can Living the life of a warrior of light Is a lifestyle most can’t understand

SOLDIERS SACRIFICE

Always fighting the good fight Always doing what is known to be right

Sacrificing of yourself for those you meet Searching for the strength to stand on your feet

When GOD is the only one you serve You know in the end, you’ll get what you deserve

Although your life may be surrounded by sin No matter the odds you can never give in

Putting the needs of others before your own It’s a lonely life, I am destine to be alone

Doing for others more then myself It’s the innocent people I’m here to help

Service to others is what I know All my work and nothing to show

But I don’t do it for material gain I don’t do it for fortune and fame

Since youth I’ve been blessed with a gift Those in times of need, their spirits I lift

I have close friends that will always be there for me But what I long for most is to start my own family

To be a soldier is to feel alone in a crowd To be a soldier is wanting to scream but to make not a sound

Service to others brings to the heart such great a joy But also sorrow having never a child, a girl or a boy

Every person has hopes and dreams But those I have of my own, impossible it seems

Everyone is here for a reason, of that I am sure But season after season, this loneliness I endure

I give and give and very little back I take Perhaps the pain of this earth is my key to heavens gates

Living a life of selflessness, honour and pride For the children of GOD, my heart I must sacrifice

It is not to be known what He has in store for me My part in the grand design, I may never see

But to His will I will always do my best to stay true If living for others is why I am here, then that is what I shall do

This earth is not heaven, though Thy kingdom draws near When my life on earth is done, it will be worth all my tears

So until the day comes when He comes to collect his church Service to others shall sooth my heart from this loneliness curse

The Lord has blessed me with good people that make me smile It is these people the Lord put before me that makes life worth while

For the only thing I have to comfort my pain Are good friends for which I may do the same

Maybe one day He shall bless me with someone to hold Maybe one day He shall bless me with a woman with a heart of gold

Perhaps it is all part of the grand design Perhaps one day, He will give me a sign

Could this curse really be my true fate? Could this curse just be a test of my faith?

I guess I will never know until it is too late I guess I will never know until I reach the pearly gates

But if this is my fate, so shall I cry For from now until the day I die In my own loneliness, I shall lie

GREEN— SPIRITUALITY

MY SPIRITUAL PATH

I was born into a culture in which I never belonged or believed At an early age I realized it was not the right one for me

Both my mother and father, pseudo-believers in the Judaic faith They only keep the traditions because that’s how they were raised

It was all that I knew, so I played along just to keep face They still don’t understand the difference between religion and race

By the age of ten, I secretly renounced all I was told Knowing nothing else, Judaism I gave up and atheism I did uphold

I believed in science and what could be proved over and over again That lasted for a while but there were things that science just couldn’t explain

I knew there was something out there in which the main religions had its roots I knew there was some divine power that lies beyond fact and tangible proof

But knowing only what I was taught since I was a kid I simply believed in GOD, but no religion I picked

I knew only two paths, but followed none for they were not right I was confused, but for the answers to my questions I did fight

Then as I searched for a path to call my own I came across something interesting, the religions of old

Not limited to one Deity, but they had many How was I to choose the one for me, when at the time I didn’t have any?

Then the concept of poly-theism began to make sense Every aspect of life was controlled by a different god or goddess

So into the world of paganism I began to inquire At first I began to take faith in water, earth, wind and fire

Then as time when on and I learned more I found there where so many other deities to explore

Then one day in the new aged section in the book store I found a new faith to which my attention was lured

It was a pagan religion of world wide practice But there were only two deities, a god and a goddess

The Wiccan motto is “harm none do as ye will” So to one with a kind heart, it seemed to fit the bill

At age 14 I adopted the Wiccan faith Little did I know, it would just open a gate

This religion incorporated the practice of magick An art of gaining what you need or protecting against the tragic

Many things I needed to acquire to construct my alter My robe, my pentacle, a bowl of salt and a bowl of water

One candle of yellow and one candle of white My magick wand and my magick knife

All these tools I used to focus my spiritual energy After doing these rituals, whatever I asked for was provided to me

After a while I got used to having this new found power I used it to help myself and my loved ones in their needy hours

It was at the age of 15 I met my brother I soon found out he was like no other

Some unknown force compelled me to start to conversate I didn’t know it then, but I know now it was fate

For some reason I asked “where can I get a pentagram to wear on my chest” Much to surprise he moved his book and there was one drawn on his desk

He practiced magick, but he was no Wiccan For he was a Satanist who was indulging in sin

A student of the world with this curiosity of mine I wanted to learn more to see what it was like

He let me listen to music and shared many simple things He became my teacher and took me under his wing

It became about indulging my every desire As a teenage youth, it was a concept I couldn’t help but ire

I when I made my first attack Using not white, but magick black

There was a girl who embarrassed me well The very next day down the stairs she fell

Using only a string tied with special knots During her fall she broke her arms and hurt it lots

From that day on I cast spells of good and bad I made my friends happy and my enemies sad

One day my brother and I went to my father’s house upstate We bonded our blood and by blood and spirit, we can never separate

For the blood that flows within our veins In both him and I are now one and the same

For several years we did the devils work Many victims, but never an innocent hurt

Until one day, the daemons that we employed Came within and took our bodies for their own joy

For once they were welcome, like a close friend But them being so welcome nearly brought me to my end

For torment and torture is what they do We both knew, with them we had to be through

But “Mom” took us to her church one night An exorcism was performed and the daemons took flight

That was the first time, I truly felt the presence of the Lord That was the time, I said goodbye to the demonic horde

The power of the Holy Ghost flowed within me At that point the mistakes of blasphemy were clear to see

The amazing feeling that I experienced inside I will need a whole other poem, just to describe

Even though till the day I’ve never read the Bible through From that day fourth on, His glory I surely knew

I threw out symbols, talismans, candles and books When I was done my room had an empty look

With all the teachings, experience and knowledge It was if I had attended spiritual college

But I soon realized this knowledge was meant to be With all these skills I’ve learned, now I can see

I am a member of the Christian faith Using my knowledge and skills to keep my loved ones safe

No longer do I commit blasphemous acts of sin But rather use my controversial methods to protect my kin

Using the forces in the universe that GOD created To help and protect those for whom my love I have stated

This concept may seem controversial to most But I only use the power of the Holy Ghost

A soldier and servant of the Lord I have become By protecting the innocent till His kingdom come

YELLOW— ENLIGHTENMENT

UNITY

In this messed up society We’re the ones with morals We are the true minority The politicians look at us And claim we’re all in gangs Because when something happens to one We all jump in You mess with one You mess with us all We don’t care who you are You’re going to fall Take our possessions Take our lives As long as we have our brothers We will always survive Unity is life and it is the way With out it no one cares what you have to say United we stand

Divided we fall We have to stick together Through times worse or better They can take away the radicals But they can’t take away our roots All my people in unison To give opposition the boot The life as a skin Is the only life for me Because my morals only help me to succeed If you only one thing I say A life of unity is the only way

THE TRUTH

Take a look through my eyes See what you see See what I see See the truth Forget the lies that you have been taught Your whole life has been false You’ve been hidden Hidden from the real world But now you know the truth You have just truly been born Visions of truth You now possess No longer tainted by lies This is what you have been all along With us you do belong This here is your place Take off the mask of deceit And take a glimpse of reality

Our mentalities are now of a similar nature Now you see what you have been missing What they want you to miss Now you see What I always have Within this world of lies Truth is all virtue They can’t stand what you have become Deep down they know You are now better then them They try to replace the mask with trickery Be wise to their games Take not my word or theirs For what is the truth Take off all the masks

Open your eyes Take a look for yourself And behold THE TRUTH!

ORANGE—ANGER

READY FOR WAR

I am ready for war I am ready to fight You’ll haunt my dreams no more In the dark of the night

The first time you came for me It’s my turn to come for you Soon your death will be Your life will soon be through

You tried to take my life It’s me that you want slain You’ll taste my magick knife Out on the astral plane

When you made the first attack You challenged my shamanism You stabbed me in the back

Now it’s spiritual Darwinism

You stole from me my breath It cost me the love of my life You tried to cause my death Instead you cost me married life

Your face I can not stand My attack you can not handle Your blood flows warm upon my hands I’ll snuff you out like a candle

If I could do it with my hands And I was exempt from the law Id jump at that chance In a heartbeat id drop you to the floor

I hate you with all my heart Your face infuriates my spirit It’s you who made this war start Its now my time to win it

I am ready for war I am ready to fight I’ll haunt your dreams forever more In the dark of the night

You’ve faced trail with no lawyer I know what I must do I am the dragon warrior Who the hell are you?

REALITY CHECK

You look at me And what do you see Just a stupid kid with no priorities You claim that you know me

You think you know how I think and what I do But the fact is that it’s just not true Just because you are older then me You think that makes me not as smart as thee

I’m told I don’t know how the world works But yet its reality that keeps me tossed and jerked Live in my life for even just one week Only then can you see my reality

Times are different and the world has changed You’re living in the past, wake up and see it today In your mind, yours is the only way

But to your arrogance I have nothing to say

You always complain when I hang out with the boys You say my music is nothing but noise You claim my music all sounds the same Claiming it is making me do things insane

It’s you that’s driving me up the wall Take your politics into the bathroom stall Take your opinions and get out of my face I’m not listening, my time I won’t waste

Trying to watch over me like a hawk Then you say you just want to talk You wonder why I’m never around Same old arguments, not a new one found

My friends you can not stand Yet always more details you demand Why ask if you don’t want to know? Just more reason to complain and moan

You’re not family just because you’re my blood Your mind must be completely covered in mud Blood is to whom by birth you came along Family is to whom your love belongs

Love and respect are two different things If put together feels like a queen or king When you have tons of love but little respect The same things returned you can expect

I know that you try to do the right things But only more problems does it bring Keep your nose out of my business I’m going to have a Guinness

Don’t try to be a private “I” To your games I am wise I’m wiser then you give me credit for I keep silent though I want to roar

If I could leave I would I’d be gone as soon as I could My privacy I don’t want to live without It makes me sick; it makes me want to shout

RED—HATE

THIS WOMAN

All I’ve ever wanted was a girl to hold Just a loyal girl with a heart of gold A beautiful girl with whom I can grow old

Years ago I thought I found the girl for me In both our hearts we felt we were destine to be Until this woman took her away from me

This coming year I’m on a mission This woman, her family will be missing This time around there will be no submission

In order to get my life back on track This year, against this woman, I’m on the attack What’s done is done; it’s too late to turn back

This woman who has filled me with hate This woman still drawing breath, I can not tolerate

The task is mine to seal this woman’s fate

This woman, against me committed the ultimate crime This woman tried to make me go before my time This woman forced me to tear out my own heart and lose my mind

Because this woman forced me to hurt someone I love From her body, this woman’s spirit must be set free as a dove When she dies, she will never make it into His kingdom above

That girl had broken the worst curse I have ever known But due to this woman, back into loneliness I was thrown This year victory shall be mine like a king on his throne

I live a life of honour, a life with only this one regret But what this woman did to me, I can NEVER forgive or forget There is no backing down; against this woman my mind is set

For what this woman has done, she shall pay In the name of justice, this woman I shall slay May This woman not live to see another day

The Good Book says to turn the other cheek But with this woman, my tolerance has reached its peak It is not vengeance, but JUSTICE I seek

STALEMATE

Since my youth I’ve lived with a curse A sad truth This feeling is the worst

Even as a kid I’ve always been alone No matter what I did I’ve had no one to hold

The solitude I know I know it all too well Where ever I go It’s my own personal hell

From early in teens To mid of twenties Many I’ve seen

But never held any

Then one day I met this girl Didn’t know what to say Didn’t know she’d be my world

The curse was broken Free at last Those three words were spoken Loneliness was now in the past

No more hurt No more pain For what it was worth There was no better gain

The luck of a clover The solitude was done The search was finally over I knew she was the one

Six months together There was no doubt in our minds We were in love with each other I was her first and she was mine

At about two years We were going strong Against all I held dear Someone did something wrong

She tried to make me breathe no more With beads and candles black An elder started a war I had to strike back

For six months I suffered Six months of breathlessness I endured It couldn’t be any tougher It’s my love I suffered for

This woman started a war She made the first attack But she couldn’t finish me off Because GOD had my back

The first six months of the war My army and I, we did fight Spells flew back and fourth Flying like bullets in the night

By staff and by rod It has come to stalemate It is only by the grace of GOD I am still alive today

At two and a half years My enemies plan was in high gear I had been reduced to tears So had come to , the worst of my fears

This girl was my heart and my soul

The girl of my dreams The truth be told I fell apart at the seems

Every time I was with her It only got worse I had no choice but to leave her Or I’d wind up in the back of a hearse

All I wanted was to hear her voice Our love I wanted to save But I knew that I had no choice It was impossible for me to stay

For the last six months We had to be on brake For while I was on the hunt We had to be separate

Questioning the skies up above For that period of time

All I could think of Was reclaiming what was mine

Then one day I came to realize This woman I came to hate Had blinded my eyes

I thought I could save “us” I just wanted her back In me my love did trust But she’d never approve the attack

I knew what I had to do I knew what had to be done We had to be through Id rather have jumped into the sun

My life I had saved But my heart was torn out All my energy I gave

But my soul was nowhere about

What my enemy had done It was a fate worse then death Until I have won I can never rest

She attacked my lungs Nearly impossible to breathe But to my health what was done Was not the worst for me

She took away my health That I can forgive But not my greatest wealth The girl for whom I lived

Being forced to end it all The hardest I ever had to go through For this she must fall If it’s the last thing I ever do

Time has past for wounds to heal We’ve had our time apart For this woman, hatred I will always feel For it has completely consumed my heart

This girl and I We are now just close friends Our bond will never die Its loyalty till the end

I lost a love But I kept a best friend She was sent from up above Her I will always defend

As far as this woman and I It has come to stalemate Even after all the things I have tried I have failed to seal her fate

Upon her face I may never look My heart still burns with hate Death by boot, blade, bullet or book I won’t rest till she is buried in a crate